Labels: wats e meaning of happiness??
think i slept fer exactly 12 hrs today.
wake up at 10+am. sleep again at 2+pm and wake up at 5.30pm.
hah!
felt kinda sadded over things i've no idea sia...
its weird.
jus sorta sianz.
listen to jay chou's hong hai over and over again.
felt tat e music of e song really suit wat my heart was singing ya.
sad. yet cheerful.
cant really figure out e true feeling and story of e song.
tats e special part.
oh ya. think i'm gonna hav to watch 'Twilight' a few times sia.
haha.
think its gonna be e most popular movie this year and next year ya.
mani ppl love it man.
romantic love story.
yet somehow touched and sorrowful.
hah!
haix. think i'm nv gonna get a job this year ya.
NOBODY even try to help me as i asked.
treat it lik nobody's business.
tats really biased.
some ppl nv even ask or say anything. and yet they've gotten one.
i've asked him. to help look out fer me.
but did he??
nv help me as he agreed and promised.
take moi words as wind.
come and goes as quickly as he wished.
haix.
tat really hurts.
as moi words are not taken into attention.
somemore he's not anybody else.
he's someone i seems to be close to but actually not really tat close.
tats confusing ya. i noe. i felt it too.
jus feel tat i'm not being taken into attention.
i'm jus alone. a nobody.
its okay. i shall live moi life wif dignity.
and not under tears and sadness.
tats horrible and pathetic.
guess not much ppl can understand e feeling i'm going thru ya.
nobody will.
everyone think i'm living wif happiness.
and tat i do not understand e meaning of happiness.
but yet. sometimes i jus really do not feel it.
i'm living wif it. but sometimes, i really do not live in it.
i live wif happiness and is not living happily.
tats really complicated.
nevermind.
shall buck up wif moi own life.
nth can fight me now ya.
as i guess i've lost e ability to feel.
moi heart is sometimes completely damaged.
i cared bout them. but do they??
it really hurts when e ones closest to me are e ones hurting me.
YFREEDOM..
11:28:00 PM
