realised tat i'm alone...
kinda lost among the crowd. not sure wat to do.
moi heart is empty today.
felt nth but sadness. flooding myself wif emo songs nw...
guess i'm crazy. some emotions jus swept past me and i'm sadded nw.
felt an urge to weep. in fact, to cry out loud...
no idea. being exceptionally emotional today ya.
felt moi world being dark and empty. wif no trace of light.
no one ever try their tiny bit to even step into moi world and giv me a hand. or even a tap on e shoulder.
tats wat i'm feeling nw...
lost. yet ppl are actually around me.
but somehow i don't feel their presence. tats weird rite?
getting this feeling on a perfectly wonderful saturday.
trying moi very best to shower dem wif moi love yet they jus don appreciate.
look out of e window and realised: i'm jus a nobody...
dey made me felt lik i'm someone that is disposable.
it hurts.
it really do.
moi feelings, thots and mood are very much ignored.
sometimes still doubt tat i'm alive.
moi heart shrinking. contracting. squeezing.
struggling to hold back moi tears b4 them as i wanna appear strong.
dispersed in all direction... moi soul is empty.
they nv notice wat i'm currently feeling.
they nv try to understand.
things are not always wat they r on e surface.
moi heart always do its best to seach fer their concealed fears, find their hidden sorrow, guess their true feelings and understand their inner beings.
but i received nth in e end but a huge chunk of misunderstanding. a gigantic storage of tears and scraps of broken heart.
i noe...
being cared and understood are always missing from moi dictionary.
but luckily, i hav 2 besties by moi side to lend me their tiny ears.
and giv me their greatest and warmest HUG.
moi soul-mates...
Zhong San Xiao Hui and Sweetie Hippo
YFREEDOM..
4:10:00 PM
